Opinion

My true self. What I think, what I like, and what I don’t like.

Francesca Non-Fiction Opinion

Why 2020 was a good year

2020 sucked. In so many ways that it doesn’t need repeating. Anything that I say will never take away from the pain and hardship of those who have experience personally the loss or illness of a loved one from Covid-19. And yet, for many of us, life goes on. We try to make the best […]

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Fetish Francesca Opinion

I’m too conventional

I can’t believe that I just got fucking turned down for a bloody marketing job because I was too damn conventional in my thinking. Fuck you! I’m fucking mad. I thought Germans had at least the courtesy to be polite and say something more encouraging when they reject you, but this sucks. Well, I can’t […]

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Fetish Francesca Latex Non-Fiction Opinion Sierra

Mind over Memory #NSFW #Tellmeabout

Ever since my St. Petersburg drama, I really haven’t thought much about relationships. Intimacy, at least for a while, was out the window. For a while, during the lock-down in New York, I even thought about giving up on seeking a relationship – ever. I was pretty depressed. Getting back home, I’m realizing how much […]

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Francesca Non-Fiction Opinion

Life in Twitter World

Lately, I’ve been posting more on twitter. Not massive amounts, but regularly one or two tweets a day. I would much rather spend time on my blog, but it’s hard to find a good stretch during the day and focus on something meaningful. Twitter is easy, sort of. But it’s not the same. What I […]

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Francesca Opinion Travel

What size is your dick?

The perfect size. I’m not just saying that out of political correctness. In fact, I have my preferences, but they are surely not the same for everyone. All I know is that cocks are high in demand. Hell, why else are strap-ons so popular? Whether it’s natural or not, it seems to me that everyone […]

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Francesca Non-Fiction Opinion

Single and blogging

I started blogging a little over a year ago, having no idea what I was doing. Before that, I had never kept a diary or any other way of keeping track of what happened in my life. I had my reasons. I didn’t want to leave a record of what I was doing. Not only […]

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Francesca Opinion Travel

I need to chill.

I don’t think I’ve ever been as stressed out as I’ve been as last few days. COVID cases in the US are rising steeply, now we’re back where we were at the end of April. And while I try to avoid paying attention to politics, even wearing a mask is politicized. I feel like retreating […]

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Francesca Opinion Travel

One toe into the water

I have a strange view of vacation, or holidays (not the religious kind). I need mental vacations, not physical ones. So, when I do go away, I much prefer going somewhere boring. Some place, where there is nothing to be done, but tune out. And tuning out is something I desperately need at the moment. […]

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Francesca Non-Fiction Opinion

Graduation Day

I woke up a few minutes ago. I’m sitting in my new little place, having a cup of tea, and am watching my own graduation ceremony. It’s a bit weird, to say the least. Usually, getting ready for a graduation ceremony is a long affair. Clothes, make-up, relatives, post-parties. All that takes time and preparation. […]

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Non-Fiction Opinion

#covid-19 #Manhattan #sb4mh

This post deals with life in Manhattan during the peak of the corona virus pandemic. It involves events that have been diagnosed as causing PTSD, including death, homelessness, panic attacks, and social isolation. I got a lot of questions in recent weeks, actually months, how I managed to make it through the COVID-19 crisis in […]

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Fetish Francesca Latex Opinion

Think Less, Live More – #NSFW

After nearly a month looking at the same four walls, I just realized how I stop thinking about sex. Don’t get me wrong, I can’t wait to have sex with a warm body other than myself. I just used to think a lot about control, trust, and all the risks that go along with having […]

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Francesca Opinion

Sex is no ritual, it’s spiritual.

I was baptized by an East German spy. Does that even count? Born a decade before the Berlin Wall came down, the cold war was my home. My Grandmother hated Russia with a passion. She never spoke about what happened when WWII ended and she had to protect three young girls. One of them was […]

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Francesca Non-Fiction Opinion

The Dark side of Gotham #SB4MH

It started about a year ago. I remember the first time I noticed her. Sitting on the doorsteps of a non-descript building around 96th street and Amsterdam.

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FebPhotoFest2020 Francesca Non-Fiction Opinion

Should I be more dominant?

In recent weeks, I haven’t been as active as I had hoped. Of course, I have a good excuse. With a baby on the way, barely a month from my due date, life slows down. School is only getting into spring break the week of March 16, just in time for ‘bump’ to come into […]

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Fetish Francesca Non-Fiction Opinion

Collared Romance – #NSFW

Submissive? Me? That’s quite an assumption you’re making my dear. Just because I wear a collar? What if I’d wear a belt with a lock. Would you think I’d be submissive? Let me tell you a story. No offense, but you’ll just have to listen. So shut …..up – I’m sure you can fill in […]

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Francesca Non-Fiction Opinion

Home-less, Home-wrecker – Alyssia

I haven’t posted anything in a couple of days. It’s one of those up and down periods that don’t seem to end. Thanks to @pjawoode for keeping me company during sleepless nights. And then I read Rebel’s post about ‘home’. She got me off my butt and thinking about where my home is; what I […]

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Books Fetish Francesca Latex Opinion

A fucked up Picture for a Cover #F4Thought

This is an updated version of one of my first posts on this blog. I’m not re-writing history, it’s just that there are parts missing. I’m not the same person I was 7 months ago. No that’s not true, I’m willing to admit that I’m still the same person I was 7 months ago. That’s […]

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Francesca Opinion

A Body of Work #LIFE

When I posted a previous #LIFE image a few weeks back, I took a couple of pictures. The one I ended up posting showed me only from behind. It was, despite my expanding size, the most ‘flattering’ picture. Then there were a few others that were similar in style, same lingerie, but showed more of […]

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Francesca Non-Fiction Opinion

Growing up #F4Thought

When 2019 began, I had not even thought about becoming a mother. I was still 39, pretending to be 29, and living life to the fullest. At least so I thought. My brain was wrapped around kinks, sex, fetishes, and for the first time, writing about it (in a book that sold an amazing 210 […]

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Fetish Francesca Latex Non-Fiction Opinion

Kink, Fetish, or Addiction #sb4mh

It’s December, the holidays are around the corner, school is over for the year, and I should be happy. Well, I’m not. Worst of all, I feel depressed and guilty about not being happy or grateful. 2019 has been an amazing year. At the beginning of the year, I was still stuck in my old […]

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Francesca Non-Fiction Opinion

Nosehook Humiliation #SinfulSunday

I’m a big fan of public humiliation. Sometimes, it doesn’t have to be so public. A nosehook is something that is uniquely humiliating to me. It doesn’t hurt, I don’t see it, yet, I know that it distorts my face, makes me look ridiculous, and is at the same time absolutely erotic for the person […]

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Books Francesca Opinion

My Kinky Santa

Dear Santa, I’ve never asked for much in the past. This year, I only want one thing; a healthy baby. If you can make that happen, please let me know if there is anything I can do for you in return. Kind regards, Francesca Dear Francesca, You will have a healthy baby, but since you […]

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Fetish Francesca Opinion

The taste of cum #NSFW #KOTW

I don’t like cum tributes. I don’t like any kind of tribute. Not even a birthday party. But what gets me off is knowing that there are men, and hopefully some women, who get off on what I write about, what I show in my pictures, how I share my experiences. In my personal life, […]

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Francesca Opinion

I suck at lingerie

I had never joined the Lingerie for Everyone link party, and I finally figured out why. I suck at lingerie. It’s not that I don’t find myself attracted to the pictures. Sure, I would not mind having a greater selection of lingerie to choose from. Yet, when it comes to real life, there seem to […]

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Francesca Opinion

The Fear of Doing Something New

When it comes to Social Media, I’m a dinosaur. I think of Social Media as something that is akin to standing naked in the middle of Times Square. Actually, worse, nobody would take notice in Manhattan. I think. Starting to write books is scary enough. What if nobody reads them? But then, the act to […]

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