Latex
Latex, Latex, Latex – Doggy Style
Oh, god, how good it feels to have a normal life every once in a while again. Normal, of course, means being wrapped in latex, layer upon layer, straps, masks, corsets, and everything else I can imagine. This is the first of a series of posts I’m going to be writing about my recent photoshoot […]
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Excitement is building!
This is my first real post in a while. I won’t dwell on the past few months, most of us probably had a hard time. But it’s all getting better and I’m super thrilled about what going to happen in a few weeks. I have to go back in history a bit, though. If you’ve […]
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I get a kick out of kink
Actually, I should have started out with ‘You get a kick out of my kink’ as a headline. At least it sure seems that way. That I have a kink for latex fashion and restraints is probably not a secret. But fetish? That’s actually an entirely different direction; at least for me. Let me start […]
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Mind over Memory #NSFW #Tellmeabout
Ever since my St. Petersburg drama, I really haven’t thought much about relationships. Intimacy, at least for a while, was out the window. For a while, during the lock-down in New York, I even thought about giving up on seeking a relationship – ever. I was pretty depressed. Getting back home, I’m realizing how much […]
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This mom is back!
Step aside, Serena. Take a seat, Vika. You may rock as tennis moms, but you’ve got nothing on this hot mom. Remember that slightly suspicious post with the ‘doubter’? Well, you weren’t wrong. It was a note to myself. After so many dry months, and so many changes, I was wondering whether I still had […]
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Back to the Future
Not long from now, I’ll be returning home. I truly don’t know what to expect. I’ve been away for several years, my life has changed completely, and I am a different person. What hasn’t changed is the world that I will be returning to. I already know that I will have to fend off pressure […]
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Going too far?
I’m having a lot of fun on twitter these days. I’m a bit careless and naughty. I tease, I play, I dump. The funny thing is, even though most of my pictures are submissive in their essence, many think I’m a Domme! I kind of get a kick out of it, but wonder whether it’s […]
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Trinity in the Matrix – #SinfulSunday
Ever since The Matrix came out, Trinity has been one of my most loved movie heroines. I just love everything about her. I also often feel that our world isn’t real, we’re all just puppets in a bigger game that someone is playing. I’m sure we all would love to be able to bend space […]
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Kink-inspiring Hotels #NSFW
What the fuck makes a hotel ‘kink-inspiring’? Well, that’s a really good question and I’m trying to give my personal opinions here. You will not find any of these on your typical list of kink-themed hotels. Quite to the contrary, most of them are very upscale hotels; something that actually makes being naughty all the […]
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Breathe and stay kinky
There are a thousand reasons to feel depressed. And there is just one reason to stay kinky. It’s so easy to get swept up in daily news, madness, insanity, and genuine human tragedy. This will continue for a while. Trying to keep up with it, to think that it will all be different tomorrow, is […]
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Seductive Photography
There is no sex without turning on the brain. Whatever stimulates the brain, triggers the rest of the body to respond. I’ve been using photography, professionally and privately, to express myself as a sexually submissive woman. For someone who loves a good fuck, it remains a fucking hard journey. It started when I entered the […]
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Decency
I’m a good listener. I’ve finally figured out that there is a place for me where I belong. And it’s not in some obscure job but in personal relations. I’m easy to talk to, a pleasure to fuck, and can make (almost) any person feel better. Just looking around, there is a lot of anger […]
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Fuck, she’s hot!
Before the lights went dark, she took one last look around. The room was still filled with designer clothes, all prepared for tomorrow’s event at the New York Fashion Week. It was only a short glimpse, but enough to tell she would never forget this night. He was mid-forties, typical New York banker by the […]
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Springtime Pleasures
There it is, my favorite place it the world. Claude Monet’s garden in Giverny. Mid-May, also happens to be Mothers Day, and a glorious late afternoon. Time to get kinky. I write a lot about my kinks, but the occasions when I feel fully immersed in them, are rare. When they do happen, and just […]
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Sex and Photography
I don’t take many pictures, but I love them. So much so, that I have only ever posted one single picture that was not of myself. It’s not that I’m so vain, it’s just that I happen to have had a lot of pictures taken by a professional photographer. Now that I’m spending much more […]
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Dreaming of Giverny
I was in Giverny last summer, the home of Claude Monet (he’s dead…). The short trip out of Paris does nothing to prepare for the visit to his garden. Unfortunately, I had to be very ‘decent’ when I was there. Now with the lock-down, I’m frankly trying to spend my time doing something useful. So […]
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More color, more collar. #LIFE #SinfulSunday
I’ve been down a little lately. There are about 10 posts that I’ve started, but just couldn’t get myself to finish. It’s getting tough being closed in, week after week. Seeing the trend not moving, sirens on the otherwise silent streets, is an ominous feeling. So, I’ve started polishing up some pictures, having some fun […]
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All we need is Color #SinfulSunday
I love b&w photography. Most of my pictures are in b&w and my attention is captured longer by the emotions expressed in those pictures. But these days, locked in my four walls for longer than I can count, I need some color in my life. I’m thinking of taking up painting, at least over m […]
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The future of me – Back to Alyssia?
At least four more weeks of pacing up and down my hallway. Hoping for nice weather and some fresh air. It’s like Alcatraz. No ocean, but the city is nice, quiet, clean. And no way to escape. I am a prisoner in my own apartment. I’ve been looking forward to a graduation ceremony. We don’t […]
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Think Less, Live More – #NSFW
After nearly a month looking at the same four walls, I just realized how I stop thinking about sex. Don’t get me wrong, I can’t wait to have sex with a warm body other than myself. I just used to think a lot about control, trust, and all the risks that go along with having […]
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My imaginary reality #sb4mh
You’d think I’d be busy enough for two people. In a way, I am. That’s probably why I need some reminiscing, some new stimulation, some breaks from the monotony of being locked inside my apartment. The person who has taken many of my pictures spends probably more time on the post-editing than the actual photoshoots. […]
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The upside of ‘Stay-at-Home’ – #NSFW
The situation in New York is grim. That’s probably putting it mildly. Being under strict orders to stay at home, avoid contact with other people, and practicing ‘social distancing’ takes its toll. Life without human interaction is not something I want to ever get used to. It’s a new reality, though. At least for another […]
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Fuck an Escort – Alyssia 4.0 #SOSS
Berlin, late summer, he had booked one of my favorite hotels. I had seen him once or twice before. It was always fun, and he had a body to die for. I check in under his name, we were Mr. and Ms. The room was prepaid, nothing to do but pick up an envelope with […]
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Forced Feeding – Alyssia the Apprentice
This post goes back a few years. Early on during my Escort time, I was curious to learn more about the sex industry. Alyssia was my Escort name. I knew what my clients were looking for only scratched the surface of what’s feasible. To be a good sub, I was curious to see how a […]
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A new phase starts – #SinfulSunday
As some of you may know, my baby bump has finally come to see the light of day. For the next days, weeks, or however long it may take, I’ll be a bit less active than I had been. There is a lot on this blog that is worth re-reading. So, for this #sinfulsunday, I […]
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What Money doesn’t buy – Alyssia quits
Together with some 30 girls, I’m sitting in a sticky conference room somewhere in Germany. It is the middle of summer, 2016. We all know why our agency has called for a meeting. There was no need for an agenda. It was all over the newspapers! Even those of us who normally don’t keep up […]
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Reflection
I came across this heavy rubber picture from a few years back. I’m thinking a lot about what’s to come in the weeks ahead. It’s not the most recent, but it captures what’s going on in my head. Reflecting on my past, and looking forward to the future. So much is changing in the coming […]
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Alyssia – Elite Fuck Toy
So you want to get a good fuck. You’re looking for a partner without success, but have a bit of spare money. It doesn’t cost much to get a blow job. You get off on it, leave, go home. And two hours later, you want to do it all over again. What you really want […]
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Kinky then and Kinky now #F4Thought
I had been a misfit for a long time. The kink community gave me a home. Not just in real life, also through the blogging community. I cannot imagine life without kink. Mine is very simple. Fetishes, particularly latex. With a baby well on its way, at 40, I wrestled with the notion of losing […]
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Fuck an Escort, it’s healthy! – Alyssia 3.0
After a few years of being in the escort business, I figured out my niche. I was really good at getting fucked by clients who had a wife and family. It took me a while to get there, but it was worth it. Married men are more stable, reliable clients. They know why they want […]
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