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Latex, Latex, Latex – Doggy Style
Oh, god, how good it feels to have a normal life every once in a while again. Normal, of course, means being wrapped in latex, layer upon layer, straps, masks, corsets, and everything else I can imagine. This is the first of a series of posts I’m going to be writing about my recent photoshoot […]
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Yes, Mistress
I had just been back in Germany for a few days and was already in trouble. The kind of trouble a starving submissive like myself had been longing for. Sara had known me for years. She knew of my secret life as an escort. And I knew of her not-so-secret life as a professional dominatrix. […]
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Still open for kinks! #NSFW
It’s been a while since I last posted an update. My crazy life is really good, busy, and exciting. That’s taken a bit of a toll on my kinky life, and my blogging. It makes me admire all those bloggers who can seemingly do it all. I’m squeezing this post in because it’s still part […]
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Homegame Advantage
Some people play kinky games away from home, on vacation, or just a night away from the kids. Well, I feel like I just returned from a long absence and need to play. Being back home means playing games. The kinkier, the better. Some of my regular playgrounds are still restricted by COVID, but that’s […]
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I’m too conventional
I can’t believe that I just got fucking turned down for a bloody marketing job because I was too damn conventional in my thinking. Fuck you! I’m fucking mad. I thought Germans had at least the courtesy to be polite and say something more encouraging when they reject you, but this sucks. Well, I can’t […]
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Spoiler Alert – I have a girlfriend
OK, let’s get real. From what I’m putting on my blog, in particular the pictures that I’m posting, you must have known that there is another person involved. Well, I have the most wonderful girlfriend who is at least as kinky as I am, but doesn’t carry my emotional baggage or dubious history. While I […]
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I get a kick out of kink
Actually, I should have started out with ‘You get a kick out of my kink’ as a headline. At least it sure seems that way. That I have a kink for latex fashion and restraints is probably not a secret. But fetish? That’s actually an entirely different direction; at least for me. Let me start […]
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Mind over Memory #NSFW #Tellmeabout
Ever since my St. Petersburg drama, I really haven’t thought much about relationships. Intimacy, at least for a while, was out the window. For a while, during the lock-down in New York, I even thought about giving up on seeking a relationship – ever. I was pretty depressed. Getting back home, I’m realizing how much […]
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This mom is back!
Step aside, Serena. Take a seat, Vika. You may rock as tennis moms, but you’ve got nothing on this hot mom. Remember that slightly suspicious post with the ‘doubter’? Well, you weren’t wrong. It was a note to myself. After so many dry months, and so many changes, I was wondering whether I still had […]
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My Kinky Bucket List – Part I
Everyone has a bucket list. Right? Well, mine is a bit different. But first, I have to make a confession. My post on ‘How kinky am I really‘ was triggered by a real message that I got. I think the person, and I have a suspicion about who it really is, has every intention of […]
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Going too far?
I’m having a lot of fun on twitter these days. I’m a bit careless and naughty. I tease, I play, I dump. The funny thing is, even though most of my pictures are submissive in their essence, many think I’m a Domme! I kind of get a kick out of it, but wonder whether it’s […]
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Will you be my Sugar Daddy?
You may wonder why I am looking for a Sugardaddy. You’re right, that would make me a Sugarbaby, someone who gets money in return for spending time, caring, and enjoying life together with a wealthy person. The question for you, though, is not why I am very comfortable being a Sugar Baby. The real question […]
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Trinity in the Matrix – #SinfulSunday
Ever since The Matrix came out, Trinity has been one of my most loved movie heroines. I just love everything about her. I also often feel that our world isn’t real, we’re all just puppets in a bigger game that someone is playing. I’m sure we all would love to be able to bend space […]
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Kink-inspiring Hotels #NSFW
What the fuck makes a hotel ‘kink-inspiring’? Well, that’s a really good question and I’m trying to give my personal opinions here. You will not find any of these on your typical list of kink-themed hotels. Quite to the contrary, most of them are very upscale hotels; something that actually makes being naughty all the […]
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Springtime Pleasures
There it is, my favorite place it the world. Claude Monet’s garden in Giverny. Mid-May, also happens to be Mothers Day, and a glorious late afternoon. Time to get kinky. I write a lot about my kinks, but the occasions when I feel fully immersed in them, are rare. When they do happen, and just […]
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Sex and Photography
I don’t take many pictures, but I love them. So much so, that I have only ever posted one single picture that was not of myself. It’s not that I’m so vain, it’s just that I happen to have had a lot of pictures taken by a professional photographer. Now that I’m spending much more […]
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Dreaming of Giverny
I was in Giverny last summer, the home of Claude Monet (he’s dead…). The short trip out of Paris does nothing to prepare for the visit to his garden. Unfortunately, I had to be very ‘decent’ when I was there. Now with the lock-down, I’m frankly trying to spend my time doing something useful. So […]
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All we need is Color #SinfulSunday
I love b&w photography. Most of my pictures are in b&w and my attention is captured longer by the emotions expressed in those pictures. But these days, locked in my four walls for longer than I can count, I need some color in my life. I’m thinking of taking up painting, at least over m […]
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The future of me – Back to Alyssia?
At least four more weeks of pacing up and down my hallway. Hoping for nice weather and some fresh air. It’s like Alcatraz. No ocean, but the city is nice, quiet, clean. And no way to escape. I am a prisoner in my own apartment. I’ve been looking forward to a graduation ceremony. We don’t […]
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Think Less, Live More – #NSFW
After nearly a month looking at the same four walls, I just realized how I stop thinking about sex. Don’t get me wrong, I can’t wait to have sex with a warm body other than myself. I just used to think a lot about control, trust, and all the risks that go along with having […]
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My imaginary reality #sb4mh
You’d think I’d be busy enough for two people. In a way, I am. That’s probably why I need some reminiscing, some new stimulation, some breaks from the monotony of being locked inside my apartment. The person who has taken many of my pictures spends probably more time on the post-editing than the actual photoshoots. […]
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The upside of ‘Stay-at-Home’ – #NSFW
The situation in New York is grim. That’s probably putting it mildly. Being under strict orders to stay at home, avoid contact with other people, and practicing ‘social distancing’ takes its toll. Life without human interaction is not something I want to ever get used to. It’s a new reality, though. At least for another […]
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Life in Isolation #NSFW #SB4MH
Here we are. With Covid-19 going rampant in Manhattan, all non-essential stores closed and everyone strongly discouraged from leaving home, cabin fever sets in. I feel it, everyone else does. Still falling into the high-risk category, I’m learning to work from home, attend classes from home, go to office hours from home, and stay in […]
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Fuck an Escort – Alyssia 4.0 #SOSS
Berlin, late summer, he had booked one of my favorite hotels. I had seen him once or twice before. It was always fun, and he had a body to die for. I check in under his name, we were Mr. and Ms. The room was prepaid, nothing to do but pick up an envelope with […]
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Fun during a time of Crisis #NSFW #SocialDistance #Stayathomechallenge
OK, so, we’re all doing virtual everything. Learning, shopping, socializing. You name it, what used to happen through human to human interaction is now part of our daily computer routine. Personally, I like it. It allows me to start getting back into shape, spend time with my little one, and pull some of my kinky […]
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Forced Feeding – Alyssia the Apprentice
This post goes back a few years. Early on during my Escort time, I was curious to learn more about the sex industry. Alyssia was my Escort name. I knew what my clients were looking for only scratched the surface of what’s feasible. To be a good sub, I was curious to see how a […]
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The Temptation of Edge Play #NSFW
As an escort, I had strict rules. Among them, never give up control. That included using only my own equipment. Nipple clamps, paddles, floggers, or anything that could inflict pain had to be my own. And I had tested each item to be ‘soft’ enough to avoid serious injury, even if a client was a […]
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Dangerous Curves – #WickedWednesday
I love curves. Unfortunately, before I became pregnant, my body was more of a straight shot. I didn’t have too much of a bum, cute c-cups, and a bit of a waist. My body was always very narrow and petite. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not complaining, but after a while, petite would like to […]
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A new phase starts – #SinfulSunday
As some of you may know, my baby bump has finally come to see the light of day. For the next days, weeks, or however long it may take, I’ll be a bit less active than I had been. There is a lot on this blog that is worth re-reading. So, for this #sinfulsunday, I […]
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Sierra makes me Come #NSFW #SOSS
I’m tired. Almost every evening now, I try to prepare for life in a household of two. It’s exhausting, so I watch some TV on the couch. My eyes are heavy and I drop the remote when I can’t stay awake. I should go to my bedroom, but the couch is too comfortable to get […]
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