Breathe #sb4mh

I’ve left Manhattan after weeks of self-isolation. This was not how I had envisaged it when I arrived to study at Columbia. I imagined receiving my degree on a glorious day in mid-May, thousands of us wearing our gowns proudly. All the ceremonies, parties, and anticipation of what comes next.

Today’s reality is different, but I take it. Casual dress, still two finals to go, but all of my belongings either on their way or already unpacked. No graduation ceremony, no excitement about the future. Just a sense of relief. A sense that life will return to normal. Not the normal we used to know, but a different normal that is up to us to define.

I’ve learned a lot during my time in New York. No just by studying the more obscure ways in which we all try to get along on a little speck of dirt, called earth. I’ve also learned a lot about people; myself included. So at the risk of pissing some of my readers off, here are the top 10 things I’ve learned while I was at Columbia; or New York more generally.

Whatever you think is wrong with people or society, there are really smart people working on it. Unfortunately, nature is way smarter than we are.

Kink isn’t limited to people who consider themselves kinky. Most people consider their kinks to be perfectly normal.

Sex is a commodity. It’s great to enjoy like sugar or spice. But it can also be addictive, abusive, and repulsive.

People are the same, but societies are different. The way my friends would describe me here would be totally different from my reputation in Berlin.

If you have a chance to go to school in the US, take it. Whether it’s the academic life, the intellectual curiosity, or the kind of research people do, it’s worth it.

New Yorkers stick together. I’ve seen more sides of Manhattan (sorry about leaving out the other boroughs) than I can describe. New Yorkers don’t give a fuck about each other, except when they need to. Then they’re like glue.

A good blow-job still works. Men are obsessed with blow-jobs. That seems to be one global universal constant.

Casual sex needs a name here. Whether it’s ‘friends with benefits’, or ‘one-night stand’, it seems impossible to just be friends and let it go where it goes. Relax people!

When it comes to fetishes, Americans suck. No self-respecting fetish model in Europe would wear the kind of fetish items that celebrities wear here. Yes, Kim, that includes you. Get a decent custom cut and don’t forget to make it shine!

America is a unique country, impossible to understand, infuriating to listen to, and brilliant in making the most of a heap of crap.

This doesn’t seem like a very impressive list of accomplishments. I have a feeling that much more has sunk in that I will only come to appreciate when this crazy time is over. For now, I’m glad to have left Manhattan. It’s nice to be able to go outside, see some grass, flowers, and a sky that doesn’t include skyscrapers.

Still, I know that I will miss New York. For now, though, I’m glad to just breathe. Digesting what life in a dying city will have done to me has to wait for a while.

14 thoughts on “Breathe #sb4mh

  1. I’ve been to NYC before. It’s a beautiful place in its own way. It has its own uniqueness like no other. You either love it or you hate it, unless you’re a tourist. For me, the big city is not the place I want to be other than to visit. Too crowded, too noisy, too stressful.

    1. And with the current situation, there is no escaping the island. Normally, I’m more of a big city girl, but I needed a break. xo

  2. It’s interesting that I feel sad and a sense of loss at your physically leaving even though we’ve never met. I appreciate the honesty and directness you express in your learnings. I also hear your frustration, anger, and sadness that the experiences you lived here (in NYC, the US, grad school, et al) were disapponting and not all you hoped for. I hope you keep blogging and writing. May this next stage in your life, as kink mother and baby nurturer, wherever you’re going and however you live, be filled with passion, creativity, and exciting fulfilling love filled relationships with kink! Xoxoxo

    1. I won’t change, although my life is going through a lot of changes. Yes, there is a sense of frustration and disappointment, but they will hopefully pass. Thanks for being there! xoxo

    1. Indeed. When you’ve figured out how Americans, and America, work, please let me know. xoxo

  3. I’m glad you arrived safely in your new home, congratulations on your graduation.

    I hope you have a lot of fun in the sunshine, with your little boy.

    Some interesting things on your list.

    Take care

    Sweet x

    1. Thanks, Sweet! And that was just off the top of my head. But I need to let it sit for a while before I can digest the last few months (and years). xoxo

  4. Good to hear the move has happened and you can now go outside. Like that image of you! Also, with this crisis we have been watching CNN more, and also listening to Cuomo. The New Yorkers indeed stick together!

    1. They do. And most of my school friends still want to remain in the city, even after graduation. I’m glad we have sensible people in New York who use their brains. xoxo

    1. Thanks! It was a lot of work, but also a lot of great Professors. Now I’m just getting dumped into a non-existing job market….

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