Growing up #F4Thought

When 2019 began, I had not even thought about becoming a mother. I was still 39, pretending to be 29, and living life to the fullest. At least so I thought. My brain was wrapped around kinks, sex, fetishes, and for the first time, writing about it (in a book that sold an amazing 210 copies on Amazon…)

Everything I enjoyed was pretty much captured in a few images — yes, I was proud of my figure, my waist, my nipples piercings, and my blow jobs.

Then the unexpected happened, I began to think about wanting a child. I had no partner, but that was no constraint. In a way (and that may be naive), I like the idea of raising a child on my own. No arguments, no disagreements, even if it also means no help when it may come in handy.

But I was was not willing to have a father in my life, just for appearance sake. So, I had became pregnant. What I just to think of as ‘cum’, was all of a sudden something very different. Someone jerked of into a cup, it got stored, tested, and eventually turned into what I now call lovingly, my bump.

So, my body changed. I still struggle with all the changes and the hormones don’t make it any easier, but the closer I get, the more assurance I have from my doctors that I have a healthy baby growing inside me, the more everything good about having a baby becomes real.

So I’m ending this year being the same person, in a different body, with a different outlook. I’ll still be kinky, probably more sleep deprived (don’t expect to see much of me come March or so), and will love my body in every shape it comes.

The small waist is gone, it may come back, it may not. The nipple piercings are gone for now, hopefully they will come back one day. I’ll still be into kinks and fetishes. And, yes, that is one reason why latex is so amazing – it stretches!!

Happy New Year — I’m glad I experienced everything I did in 2019, but can’t wait to get to 2020.


22 thoughts on “Growing up #F4Thought

  1. You are amazing and you will continue to be so. Motherhood will add an additional dimension to who you are. Both pictures are great, I love the impressions on you skin on the pre-pregnancy picture. I find a pregnant woman beautiful , there are possibly many reasons why , but I thinks less about why and appreciate what I see.

  2. You are expanding your presence and being in so many ways still to discover, still embodying your wise beautiful self

  3. I think things may change but perhaps in a good way. It may take a while but all your kinks & fetishes will be laying below the surface or dormant until you’re ready.
    Congratulations on motherhood 🙂

    1. Thanks, Cat! I know it’ll be different. And yet, there are so many parents out here who find ways to live out their kinks. I hope I’ll be among them.

  4. I hope you’ll still find time to be around a little after March as I love your writing and photos. But also your general presence in this community has been a wonderful addition. Happy New Year xx

  5. It’s an amazing adventure you are on. I loved being pregnant. Feeling my boys moving inside me, kicking and wriggling; when they had hiccups and I could feel them just bouncing, I remember wondering what that was. I hope so much that you have a wonderful pregnancy Francesca and that your baby is delivered safe and well into your arms.

    Sweetgirl x

    1. One of the things I have often said is that if I had my time again I would have my kids on my own. Yes that presents lots of challenges but it also gives freedoms that having a ‘father’ doesn’t allow.


  6. What an amazing 2020 u have ahead of u. I am really looking forward to reading about it and really hope you will be documented it as it happens
    May x

    1. I’m really looking forward to it now, after some hesitation a few weeks back. I’ll have to figure out how much of it I share, it’s unlikely that my ‘bump’ will come across this blog anytime soon, but it’s just something that’s in the back of my mind. xoxo

    1. Thanks, DS! I’m looking forward to it, although I’m waddling quite a bit already. The couch is my friend…xo

  7. Have a great New Year with wonderful new feelings of motherhood.
    You are going to be one beautiful sexy and super mother

    1. Thanks sindee ! I feel the last few weeks are going to be a bit rough, but I’m really looking forward to motherhood in 2020. Xox

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