Permanent Rubberdoll – My Fantasy #SOSS

It’s no secret, I’m obsessed with latex. I think the obsession began in earnest when I saw the first books by Eric Stanton. More cartoonish depiction of women in extreme form, both dominant and submissive. Beyond all reality and a pure fetish dream. It was more the images than the stories that stuck with me. They became my own desire to be just like them. At least in my fantasies.

I’ve since assembled quite an assortment of bondage gear to turn me into a rubberdoll, inescapably sealed for as long as my dominant wants. The first time I experienced being sealed, head to toe, completely in rubber was addictive. We were in Munich, before I was pregnant, and I had brought some new toys.

Not long after we arrived, curiosity got the better of me and I slipped into a new red latex catsuit. I normally don’t like hoods, but this time, I wanted it to be part of it. Disappearing behind a protective skin that conceals myself, my looks, my personality.

Once I stepped out of the bathroom in my catsuit, he had already put together a few extra items that would make the experience even more memorable. A new heavy rubber corset, with attached crotch dildos for my pussy and my ass.

It did take a while to lace up the corset, giving me plenty of time to get used to my constrictive environment. I was still able to see what was going on around me, but my mobility was increasingly restricted.

Next came bondage cuffs around my arms, and a rubber bondage collar. All were quickly locked on me and I began to feel how helplessly exposed I was. Every hole was filled, there was almost nothing I could do, least of all free myself. My arms were firmly bound to my body.

I stayed this way for a long time, unable to move much by myself. It gave me time to get into the headspace of a rubberdoll. By the time he used me, pushing his cock down my throat the way he would with a sex doll, I did feel like a sex doll. To my surprise, I felt powerful. Like a super hero. It didn’t want it to stop; ever.

There was an amazing sexual drive that was building when he replaced the regular dildos with inflatable ones and started pumping them up. I could do nothing to prevent him from using my pussy and my ass for his pleasure, his entertainment. At first it was pleasant to feel the pressure building. He wouldn’t stop there, every time he released some of the pressure, the next time would fill me up even more than before. It got to the point where I thought I couldn’t take anymore. But he kept going. I was completely helpless, just like I wanted to be.

I always fantasized about being sealed in rubber; permanently. Somehow have my own skin completely replaced with an artificial skin. Not just being sealed in rubber for extended periods, but be transformed into a living rubber doll.

Why I continue to have this fantasy decades after I saw the first images in an Eric Stanton book is difficult to explain, but it has less to do with my love for latex, and more with my deep desire to be someone else’s object. Being transformed into a living object with only one purpose, pleasing my owner and being available as his sex doll when ever he wants. Not a sex slave, not having to obey his commands, but being his helpless object. No responsibility to think, just experiencing the way he wants to use me.

The thought of never being able to escape my new fate is an incredible turn on for me, it’s the inability to change anything about my situation. Whether it’s being used, being restrained, or being pushed to my limits by a Master who only regards me as an object. Objectification.

I’d never want to go that far in reality, even if it were possible, but the thought alone always bring me to the edge of orgasm. When I do experience being sealed in rubber and helplessly used, I come quickly and often. I have never had multiple orgasms in succession, except when I was living out my fantasy as a living rubberdoll, helpless, and used by my partner.

Being one of Eric Stanton’s objectified rubberdolls, that’s my fantasy.



  1. What a fascinating post I can relate to this
    “pleasing my owner and being available as his sex doll when ever he wants. ”
    but for me I think it is one of those fantasies that I just want to think about rather than putting anything in place to live it out. I do think I am going to have to check out that book though
    May x

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    • I remember seeing the book in my late teens. It was one of those moments that got stuck in my brain. I don’t think I’d want to go further than I am, but I guess that’s the beauty of fantasies. xox

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  2. I hugely enjoyed reading how your fantasy to be a rubber doll became reality. To say it was hot to read would be a huge understatement. All I know is I was left breathless by the end. I have never heard of Eric Stanton but I think must seek out his work. I can’t imagine it’s in my local library though. . ..

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    • Glad you enjoyed it๐Ÿ˜Š. No, Iโ€™m afraid you wonโ€™t find any if his books in your local library. There are some originals flying around on eBay, but since they are classics, they can be pricey.


      • Thanks,Molly. The rubber is a kink of mine that I’ve had for a long time. The objectification is something I had to get used to, but once I was into it, I loved it. It’s unfortunately easily misunderstood.๐Ÿ˜˜


  3. You know I wasn’t sure we’d get many kink related posts for this week but hot damn I’m glad we did! That first picture is just unreal, I honestly can’t stop looking at it, but I did peel my eyes away long enough to read your post and it was a great share. Being head to toe in Latex is something I’ve always wanted to do, but am yet to try, it probably won’t happen any time soon, but reading this I definitely know that is something I’ll seek out one-day x

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    • Thanks, Floss! I don’t get to do it much because I’m not a huge fan of having my head covered, but when the right person is with me, it’s a blissful state of mind — and a great way to let whatever happens happen. Hope you get to experience it soon. xox


  4. This is really good. Parts of the CD/TV/TS scenes have some intense fantasies about rubber doll transformation and incarceration that can be rather contrived. To read a real life experience and doll desires, especially from the female view is absolutely great.

    Objectification is also fascinating and rare to read about it as a reality in such a wonderful way.

    Lovely pictures, too. ๐ŸŒน๐ŸŒน

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    • Thank you! Itโ€™s true, Iโ€™ve seen some of the stories, and most of them are somewhat, well, unrealistic would probably be an understatement. I just love the cocoon around me. Iโ€™m sure a psychologist could trace it back to my childhood. โ˜บ๏ธ

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  5. This was a really early fetish of mine but something I never really got to explore much. I didn’t like wearing latex much for a long time and then a few years ago something clicked and I fell in love with it so maybe I need to revisit this fantasy.

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  6. I found this really hot and there is a lot in enforced objectification which appeals to me too. We have had a scene before where I was a sort of sex doll and it was one of the best for me due to the humiliation and objectification. Your outfit is very sexy and I like the thighs of being dressed like that, although it is not something we have ever done ๐Ÿ˜Š

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