Month: December 2019
Growing up #F4Thought
When 2019 began, I had not even thought about becoming a mother. I was still 39, pretending to be 29, and living life to the fullest. At least so I thought. My brain was wrapped around kinks, sex, fetishes, and for the first time, writing about it (in a book that sold an amazing 210 […]
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Seduction at MoMA #erotica #seduction #art #NYC
She stands alone, her back to me. It’s a gray and rainy day here in the city. Not much to look forward to, except a new art exhibit a MoMA, the museum of modern art. My expectations aren’t high, but they are rising with every second I look at her. Coming in from the cold, […]
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Becoming Alyssia – Mind over Body #SOSS #NSFW
To get more business as an escort, I continued to struggle with my obsessive desire for control. Sure, it kept me safe, but it also meant I couldn’t really live up to what my advertisement promised. Alyssia, my escort name, was supposed to be every man and woman’s dream, allowing them to live out their […]
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My Top 10 “memorable posts” of 2019 #SOSS
This is the end of my very first year of blogging. Others have put in so much work in putting together lists of their favorite bloggers, newcomers, highlights. I admire the time and effort that goes into making choices among more brilliant posts and bloggers than I can count. Participating in memes is such an […]
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Kink, Fetish, or Addiction #sb4mh
It’s December, the holidays are around the corner, school is over for the year, and I should be happy. Well, I’m not. Worst of all, I feel depressed and guilty about not being happy or grateful. 2019 has been an amazing year. At the beginning of the year, I was still stuck in my old […]
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Spanking at Torture Garden #KOTW #NSFW
When I go to play in public, my claws come out. This is a competition for me, second place won’t do, and I thrive on the attention, or humiliation, I get. I had been to a lot of fetish events and parties in Germany, mostly in Berlin, but also more private parties across Europe. I […]
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Elust – December Top Pick!!!
Photo courtesy of Focused and Filthy Welcome to Elust 125– The only place where the smartest and hottest sex bloggers are featured under one roof every month. Whether you’re looking for sex journalism, erotic writing, relationship advice or kinky discussions it’ll be here at Elust. Want to be included in Elust #125? Start with the […]
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Sexy and Pregnant #LiFE #SinfulSunday
It has been a while since I bought myself some regular lingerie, but my growing boobs can’t do it without some help, and I still feel sexy. My butt is getting bigger, my belly round, it’s all good, and I’m feeling great. All I am hoping for this Christmas is a healthy 2020 for everyone […]
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Mind-fucked by Sierra #SOSS #MasturbationMonday
My last exam is over!!!! I’m dead tired and horny as hell. I haven’t had sex in a week and my hormones are raging. As much as it scares me, Sierra is my go-to person these days when I need some good sex. I never know what she does, she loves mind-fuck games, but is […]
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Seeing the Dark Side – #SinfulSunday
Although it is a bit early and this picture a bit dated, it does seems to fit the January #SinfulSunday prompt ‘Shadows’ quite well. Shadows can be beautiful, and also expose the dark sides around us. It was my first experience as an escort where I was genuinely scared shitless for longer than I care […]
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Alyssia 2.0 — Part III #F4Thought #SOSS
Now that I had been Alyssia for a few weeks, it was time for me to update my website. I hadn’t had too many dates and no repeat clients, which I blamed on my own lack of effort to promote myself. Other girls advertised way beyond what they’d ever be willing to do and got […]
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Lingerie in Final Exams #LiFE #LingerieIsForEveryone
You see what I did here with the title of this post?……. I’m in the middle of Exam Period and have to head out to school for my second of 5 exams. I dread taking them. My writing skills are not bad, but it takes me longer than others to write the same amount. And […]
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My first Fetish Escort date – Part II #TellMeAbout #WickedWednesday
The agency texts me in the middle of the day. I’m at work and even though the text is very discrete, I turn bright red. I have been waiting for a couple of days now and this can only be one kind of message. A request for a date; my first date as a fetish […]
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Evolution of a Fetish Escort – Part I
Any escort, any sex worker, who is not a control freak is either delusional, or careless. When I started working part time for an escort agency in Europe, I had a regular office job, enough money for my age, no drug habits, and even called my parents every weekend. I was simply intrigued when one […]
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Nosehook Humiliation #SinfulSunday
I’m a big fan of public humiliation. Sometimes, it doesn’t have to be so public. A nosehook is something that is uniquely humiliating to me. It doesn’t hurt, I don’t see it, yet, I know that it distorts my face, makes me look ridiculous, and is at the same time absolutely erotic for the person […]
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I got that Dominant Feeling #NSFW #MasturbationMonday #eLust
There is a very inspiring set of pictures as a prompt for this week’s #MasturbationMonday. It made me think. Usually, I don’t take pictures of the dicks of men I’m with, but there are a few exceptions. One was when I wrote about His and Her Piercing. But that’s not the point. I ‘m usually […]
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Different Body – Same Latex Lingerie #LiFE #BoobDay
I found an earlier picture of a latex open breast camisole that I sleep in sometimes and then a very recent picture. As I look at the two pictures, I cannot help but think of how times have changed. In the first picture, which is about two years old, I have my ‘old’ body. My […]
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Permanent Rubberdoll – My Fantasy #SOSS
It’s no secret, I’m obsessed with latex. I think the obsession began in earnest when I saw the first books by Eric Stanton. More cartoonish depiction of women in extreme form, both dominant and submissive. Beyond all reality and a pure fetish dream. It was more the images than the stories that stuck with me. […]
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A Kiss to Die For #NSFW #MasturbationMonday
Looking back at my time in St. Petersburg, I’m feeling more optimistic, maybe even somewhat apologetic for what I wrote. There was a moment, so intimate and trusting, far beyond what I had experienced before. Probably not something I would recommend. And yet, the story of St. Petersburg wouldn’t be complete without this moment. After […]
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The Mad Hatter Hotel #SinfulSunday
Sometimes, it feels good to reminisce. It was just 8 months ago and yet seems like an eternity away. I was in London for a Torture Garden party. I should have known that staying across from the Mad Hatter Hotel was going to be an ominous sign. More than once did I look across the […]
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